What moments have you experienced when you were clearly out of place with the people around you?

High school classmates have dinner at reunions, some people come by themselves, some people are sent by people who drive, I am more special, I ride a shared bicycle. At dinner, everyone pushed the cup and changed the lamp, Xueba said that he went abroad to transfer to the computer, Bai Fumei said how her boyfriend was, and the person who failed the college entrance examination said his way to make a fortune. When it was my turn to speak, I found that my ordinary life seemed to have nothing to say, so I said, "The fat sausage of this house is still the taste of our school."

My classmates gave me strange looks and smiled randomly awkwardly and politely. At this moment, I felt that the air around me was out of place with me.

Radio gymnastics in middle school, I don't know why, everyone will do it a few beats faster than the rhythm of the slogan, and the students who lead the exercise are no exception, only me, I do it strictly according to ......the rhythm, which is very out of placeAnd the action is standard, the attitude is serious, and it seems out of place compared to most people around ...... do it casually

The man downstairs was sick to death, and the family next door was singing on the gramophone, and the opposite was playing with children. There were two people upstairs laughing maniacally; There is also the sound of playing cards. There was a woman on the boat in the river crying for her dead mother. The joys and sorrows of human beings are not the same, I just think they are noisy.

My hometown is rural, and it has been a year since I graduated from university. There are many relatives, friends, and friends around, most of whom have a low level of knowledge and culture. When I go home during the New Year's holidays, the people around me are nothing more than gambling, drinking, playing mahjong and playing mobile phones, and I usually just listen to them.

Occasionally chatting, they are talking about who and who makes money, and what happened to which girl. In their eyes, I'm just a stupid person who reads. I seemed out of place, but I could understand them.

Once I went to an interview, the other party wrote that it was a farmer's trading company, took a taxi to the urban-rural junction, and got off the bus to find a big vegetable market. I was wearing leather shoes, a suit, a tie, and a briefcase in my hand. The market is full of tractors, bread, four-wheeled people, aunts who buy vegetables and vendors who sell vegetables.

It had just rained and there was no road, so I walked in the mud for another half an hour, and then hit four or five ** and finally found it. The interview was conducted in an artificial board room, and I walked for another half hour to come out. There was this feeling of being out of place, feeling out of place.

Eating in a restaurant, I met two elementary school classmates, they used to be top students, and they are still school masters, and although I used to be not a top student, I was also very good, and now I am a scumbag who smokes, sleeps in class, plays cards and plays with mobile phones, and rides a motorcycle to fool around (and has dropped out), so I can only see them simply say hello and smile awkwardly.

When I was in elementary school and junior high school, the girls around me liked to go to the bathroom together, and after class, a group of girls asked noisily, "Do you want to go to the toilet?" "Are you going?" "I'm more casual, often I just have someone with me, I go alone when no one is with me, and when I come back, I can stand alone in the classroom corridor and blow the wind quietly.

Later, many classmates asked me, "Why do you want to go to the toilet alone?" "Why are you always alone? "I still haven't understood why I can't go to the toilet alone."

In the dormitory, they are all talking about variety shows and TV series, I don't know any of them, and some of them only know their names, looking at them like curious babies, they look at me like fools. ‍‍

In the dormitory, I listened to my roommates talk about the glory of the king, and then the three of them turned black together, but I could only look at the book and listen to their laughter.

I rarely go to KTV and rarely listen to pop songs, and once I went to KTV to sing, I ordered "Koi Copy", "Snow Between the Eyebrows", "Mountain Ghost" and so on, and so on, and I sang "If someone is on the forehead of the mountain, he will wear a woman with a woman". The atmosphere suddenly became fiercely quiet, and I felt so embarrassed. Aren't you thinking, what kind of elegance is this product going to KTV??

There are four people in the dormitory, and three people have objects. One does not return to the dormitory for three days, one often walks with the subject until two o'clock in the middle of the night before the dormitory, and the remaining one can talk to the subject in the dormitory for two or three hours. Every time when they drown in the stinky ditch of love for half a year and can't extricate themselves, I can only rely on watching the World Cup to ease my mood, but TM's World Cup buys who loses, mmp!

In college, I get up early and go to bed early on time, I don't play games, I don't brush Tik Tok, and I rarely chase variety shows....

Are those who seem out of place pure at heart?

Do those who look out of place have a determined look in their eyes?

Do those who seem out of place also have thoughts that are incompatible with the law?

Small collectives, big societies, there will always be outliers.

Ugly duckling, why did you look so bad when you were young?

Van Gogh, why is your belief in painting so noisy?

We accuse the different, we talk about the unique, do we absolutely despise it, or do we envy it?

Yes, you envy him for being able to do real self-chaos, and you envy him for doing what he really likes. It's also possible that you're jealous. jealous that he is not an ugly duckling, he can't become a white swan; Frustration can't become Van Gogh's excitation, and it can't be remembered forever.

So you can only denigrate those who don't fit in, it's not that they can't fit in, it's that you can never enter their world.

I have been a very introverted child since I was a child, and until now, I prefer to believe that as Jiangnan said, everyone has a lonely child living in their hearts, and when they chat, I will find that I have nothing to say, and I feel very bored. In addition to being bored, I also had to force my face to laugh, my expression was numb, and my heart was very tired, and I felt exhausted.

I hate crowded places, which make me uncomfortable, and I'd rather be alone in a dark and silent hut than in public, because I find that I don't fit in with them, and I feel like two worlds are the same. Every time I talk to someone, I have to rehearse in my mind for a long time, I am afraid that I will not be able to speak well and be nervous. Every time I talk to a friend, I'm inexplicably nervous, even if it's a particularly friendly friend, every time I chat and talk about the rise, I will come to a sentence like this for no reason, I'm hanging up, at first my friends were a little blinded, and then gradually got used to it, there is really something to play**, generally my** is the express call, of course, there is the most concerned about my 10086.

I wanted to change, but I found that I was used to this feeling, I like to be alone in the night scene, watching the crowd, the noise of the street, which makes me forget my loneliness for a while, I yearn for loneliness, but I abandon loneliness and go on the road alone. I hope to have someone who is like a warm spring breeze and a bright star in the still night, accompanying me.