Was there a moment when you felt a deep despair about life?

The loneliness of 2016, the outbreak of 2017, and then sought psychological and sports help, and by 2018, I have completely come out of that sad state, and now although I am still depressed and need to be comforted by others, most of my heart is very calm, and I can feel happy and happy. ‍‍

It's just that when I was answering other people's questions, I typed a lot of words, but I accidentally pressed cancel, which really made me desperate, and I had to type again, so troublesome!

My husband and I have been married for ten years, we met on a blind date, and we got married in a flash for three months, and our sons and daughters are smart, cute, beautiful and sensible. My husband's family is poor, we borrow money when we get married, and after marriage, we pay off our accounts, save money, start a business, and we can't say that we are rich and expensive until now, but a well-off is a must, and we all have it when ordinary people have, and occasionally we can be extravagant. The other night he came home from drinking too much and said:

It's been a long time since he's drunk, and only when he's drunk will he think of the person he loves the most, and only when he's drunk will he know who he loves the most. I know that the person in his mouth, younger and more beautiful than me, was his first love, because her husband's family was poor and finally broke up because of her family's opposition.

I've been working for three years now, but the salary I receive in our company is really not high, especially when I was paid a month ago, and the bonus I got turned out to be one of the lowest in our team. Haven't I made a difference? Why didn't the leader look at it, why did he give me the lowest bonus?

I really felt a sense of despair.

Of course, in 16 years, my mother was seriously ill, running around the big hospitals in various cities, not mentioning how much money was spent, all I got was to go home, don't look at it, I felt that the family suddenly lost the backbone, my kind mother has never done anything bad in her life, none of the neighbors said that she was not friendly to people, but why are good people not rewarded? It's really desperate!

When he learned of his son's illness, when he played cards and stayed up all night, when his beloved son left suddenly due to illness, when he chatted with his lover tenderly and sweetly.

I have had, I have hurt, I have hurt, I have loved, I have hated. It is not necessary to let the heavens and the earth be unspiritual. I have tasted the ups and downs of life.

Sometimes I really feel hopeless and helpless, life is so embarrassed, and I feel life in the experience. Now let go of a lot and start a new life. Now choose to walk the road of life plainly.

At that time, I was faced with the situation of just graduating, quitting my job, and being in a different place. I was surrounded by people I didn't know, and I didn't have any contact with my colleagues. There was only one boy, a good friend of mine from college, who was also preparing for World War II.

But he lives near the school and can go to the school's classroom to review. And I, because I am far away from school, can only review by myself in my room. Life during that period was both regular and hard.

In real life, I think each of us has had such moments. It was at that moment that I felt that my life was completely hopeless, and that my life and life had no meaning. This feeling can make us feel particularly hopeless about life, and even have a feeling of wanting to suffocate.

At this time, we will feel that there is no meaning in life, and there is no hope. And for me, there have been moments like this in my life.

That moment occurred in the year I took the college entrance examination, because I went to a normal school, but the school was no longer assigned when I graduated, so I could only choose the corresponding college entrance examination. Before the college entrance examination, the teacher told us that there was an undergraduate school, so each of us worked very hard to study, and wanted to go to an undergraduate school through the college entrance examination, and then make our life more perfect.

But after we took the college entrance examination, there was no undergraduate school to admit us that year, and although I scored 570 points in the college entrance examination that year, I was faced with a situation where there was no school to go to. In this case, I had to choose a junior college. When I heard the news, I was spinning in a spin and my mind felt like a blank slate.

At that time, I felt that my life was over, and I always felt that my life was meaningless from now on, that all my efforts had come to naught, and that my life had stopped.

But even if this happens, each of us needs to work hard to face it. So in desperation, I still chose to go to a junior college. There will be all kinds of problems and tribulations in life, but we can only choose to accept, because only when we accept it, can we better experience life and change ourselves.

So, even if there is a moment in your life that makes you feel completely hopeless, we must not be discouraged, we must also catch up and use our own efforts to change our lives.

Sometimes there is a moment when I am very tired, I feel that I have seen through a lot of things, and I feel that the result of my persistent pursuit is just like that, and it doesn't matter if I get it or not, and it will become a thing of the past in the end. This is especially true when life is constantly hitting a wall and there is a lot of stress.

The water spilled by the daughter who got married, especially if she married far away, felt that she was a foreigner when she went to **, so the girls who got married had no home and no support, so sometimes she felt very broken.

When you are disappointed in life, there are also times when you are seriously ill. When you are not working well in your work or study, you will feel that many things you are doing are meaningless. When you are seriously ill and have no money for treatment or do not get better, you will despair of life.

One: When my parents urged me to get married, I was obviously living well alone, but I had to go on a blind date, I really didn't want to eat with strangers, and every time I didn't succeed, I would be counted, and then I would be very sad. Two:

When I was shirked by others at work, I didn't understand why I should be responsible when it wasn't my fault. Three: When I paid the mortgage, I had to be depressed for a long time every time because I had no money to buy other things.

When my parents were sick, I couldn't afford to treat my parents because I owed them loan sharks, and I was very painful and self-blaming, and I was desperate because I had no choice.

I didn't bring change when I took the bus, I didn't have chopsticks for dinner, etc., and once I took the bus, my mobile phone ran out of battery, but I didn't have any money with me, and I felt desperate when I was far away from home.

When I lost my job, I really lost hope in life, and I was very confused, and I was desperate at that moment.

When you always fail to start your own business, you are very desperate, and at this time you are particularly broken down and lose your direction.

When I saw my girlfriend walking hand in hand with someone else, I was in a state of mind, or I found that instant noodles didn't have forks.

It was when I went to the toilet to defecate that I realized that I didn't bring paper. And his phone is out of battery.

The quarrel shows that there is still a topic, and it is even more sad to have different dreams in the same bed, each of them is wonderful, and the child has to be a model parent in front of him, the child is just seven years old, and it feels like half a century has passed.

Angry and angry, low mood into the abyss, angry and thousands of floors, instant despair, living is simply torture, forget it, angry, the earth will not stop because of who is missing. It's better to wash and rest early, it's not easy to disturb others, there is no obligation and responsibility to accompany and coax, self-healing and self-healing. It's not a thing.

On the way home by bus, the bus broke down and was thrown in a broken place where birds don't, can't go to the village, and can't go to the store. I can only silently hope that the car will be repaired soon.

When my husband helped his parents bully me, I felt that my life was all dark, and my life was so unhappy, I felt deep despair!

On the ninth day of every month, the deadline for returning Huabei, I felt that the whole world was dark, very desperate, and I was going to bleed again, which made people sad.

Grandpa was talking and laughing with us the day before, and he was in good spirits, but the next day he was given a critical illness notice. When I watched the doctor come out of the emergency room and say sorry to us, I was really desperate, and the grandfather who had brought me up since I was a child just left, and it felt like the sky was falling.

There was a moment of deep despair about life when I had a child, and one day I saw information about a class that was difficult to cross, and then I found a deep despair.

This kind of despair is a clear understanding of your own class, and the imprint of this class is not completely determined by you, it may be related to your parents, but also related to your own efforts, and at that time I deeply experienced a kind of desperation that I deeply realized that my husband and I are completely from the grassroots, and we cannot rely on our parents because they cannot create a better class. The problem left for us is how to make a class transition on the basis of the existing one.

I remember reading the article about Shengshi Ants last year, which tells the story of a woman in a poor village in Lanzhou who brutally killed her child and then committed suicide by herself.

Some people think that woman is too cruel, but for that Lanzhou woman, the most feared thing in life is despair, despair brings people to lose the fighting spirit and courage of life, and also lose the pursuit of life. And I now understand her very deeply, and understand the despair in her heart, because this despair is not only her, but many others.

Especially the so-called middle class is also very uncomfortable. We live in a society of change, no one has a sense of security, life itself is stressful, and society is full of unhappiness. And those who can live with hope are the wise and brave in life.

Although I was desperate at that moment, I have now come out of this despair, because I know that no matter what problems fate throws at me, all I can do is to go out and step out, and set a good example for myself and future generations.

In the year I graduated, when I was hesitating to resign, I was cheated of 1,000 yuan by the professional **, and I was pitiful that my monthly salary was less than 2,000 at that time. Well, I think I'm unlucky, and I can still last until the day of my salary with a thousand buckles left.

A man with glasses claimed to be the head of the department, sat down and said that yesterday's interview results were not counted, and that his subordinates decided randomly, and just now he read my resume and felt that I had no experience and did not meet his job requirements. When the old lady heard this, she immediately blew up, daring me to love me is a cannon fodder, and I was tricked to run back and forth to this broken company twice. Knowing that this interview was hopeless, I also let it go out and angrily scolded him:

Doesn't your recruitment requirement say that excellent graduates with no experience are also acceptable? The day before yesterday, the young lady said that I could go to work, and today she said that she would have to take a retest, it seems that the management of your company is chaotic enough! Not to be outdone, the man with glasses said, how does a character like yours do business and communicate with customers?

After arguing for forty minutes, he finally pulled my resume out of his hand and turned around domineeringly.

Degassing is degassing, and it leaks as soon as it leaves the company's door. I took the bus back to the dormitory in frustration, and when I came back, I found that my phone was inexplicably missing. God, I really wanted to die at that moment.

When I quit the teacher's team.

I joined the teaching team when I was a freshman, and our team mainly expands the knowledge of the current major and understands it in another way. The teacher is also a high-end professor, who has made certain achievements in the profession, and is the leader of our department, which can be said to be very powerful.

The original intention of joining was to experience the life of his laboratory and enrich his knowledge. Seeing that everyone else joined, I didn't think about it carefully and followed suit.

Our main task is to use computer software to make models and then calculate, regularly report our tasks in the form of ppt, and read a certain amount of literature every day, and it is all in English, which is quite challenging.

I didn't know how to get started with these things, I learned worse than the people in the same group, and I didn't summarize the literature well, so the teacher often criticized me for this. And I've always wanted to make some grades for the teacher to see that I can do it, but every time I think of going to the lab and sitting next to the teacher in the dormitory, I feel very nervous, very resistant, and feel like a year. I often have mental struggles, wanting to go but not wanting to go, it's annoying.

Later, I felt that this state could not be persisted, so I wanted to leave, I plucked up the courage to tell the teacher, the teacher firmly disagreed, one of the reasons is that he lacked manpower, and he was not willing to let me give up halfway, but I really couldn't hold on, he said that I was going to cry when I let me continue to insist, and then two days later, I told him this matter on WeChat, we both said very long, the teacher has been stopping me, good words to persuade me, I am wondering if I insist on leaving is not sorry for the teacher's cultivation, But I don't want to be happy without myself, I asked a lot of classmates for their opinions, and they all said let me follow my heart, I think too, what is more important than myself, I can't just see the benefits of learning from teachers, but also see whether I like it or not, whether I can do it well.

Later, no matter what the teacher said, I insisted on my attitude, and in the end the teacher compromised, my heart was really relieved, and the previous despair also disappeared, and I was a lot more happy, and I finally breathed a sigh of relief, and it was beautiful to see. It was so much fun!