What is it like to not be able to find a job for a long time?

I was sad, I could have gone to my favorite city to do the job I liked, because I had been looking for a job for several months before I graduated, and I was full of joy and ready to buy a ticket to rent a house, but in the end everything was stopped by my dad, he didn't let me go, he was afraid that the city would have high consumption, and he was afraid that I would spend his money, but I went to school and graduated, and never asked him for a penny, I don't know why he thought I would spend his money. Then I compromised and looked for a job for a long time, and I was going to work in a city close to my home, but he was afraid that I would spend money on renting a house, and he would stop me. He wanted me to work in the factory in our village, 2,000 yuan a month, and the employees were all old men and aunts, and they spoke rudely, and I told my grandmother, and my grandmother was very angry with him like this.

Now I am very unhappy every day, and when I close my eyes at night, I can't stop crying, thinking about a hopeless tomorrow, and I want to die so that I can go where I want to go. Before I could take the first step, my dream was shattered, perhaps because of the forbearance and cowardice I had since I was a child, which caused me to suffer unbearably now.

Previously September 27, 2018, 2 a.m. I was actually only looking for a job for a little over a month. I was fired by the company yesterday when I was put on a probationary job, and it is true that my ability is not enough.

And it's not very suitable, get up at 6:30 every day and do a car and a half for an hour. Then I stuck in a two-hour car jam at night to get home. It was on the bus in a traffic jam that I was told that I was not suitable for this job.

I don't know what to do, does the ghost start everything. I tell myself every time, don't be afraid, relax your mind, and the people around me think that my mentality is so good that it explodes. Well, I thought it was like that, too.

It's going to get better, it can't be that bad all the time, I'm only 22 years old. I'm going to live for decades. I don't believe it's always been unsatisfactory.

It's all temporary. It's going to be fine, hair, and you don't have to lose it anymore.

Maybe all the feelings are broken teeth into the stomach to stuff the feeling, especially sad, I want to cry when I see the topic, a person came to Chengdu with a lonely heart, looking for a girlfriend, before coming to a warm blood, I feel how beautiful life is, after a while I know how difficult life is, I dare not tell my parents, deceive them to find a job before coming to Chengdu, they don't allow me to go home, with the only money in my arms to live in a hotel, full of plans and loopholes, nothing to find, Chengdu is so big, But there is no place for me, no one speaks Mandarin, I feel how out of place, but the days have to go on, what do I have, only that useless self-esteem, life is so difficult, what should I do.

A year after graduation, I quit naked at the end of June, thinking that I could find a good job when I came out, and I was overconfident. I didn't expect that the resume I submitted couldn't pass, or the work couldn't pass, and after a month, I was rejected many times by the company I wanted to go to, and I felt like I was going to collapse. Then I bought the course and decided to learn C4D and improve myself.

I hope I can find a suitable company and a good job.

At the end of August, I resigned naked, and I didn't find a job for two weeks, and I had seventy or eighty resumes in total, but only one ** called, and the interview was not passed. I used to do procurement, and when I was looking for a job, I found that I had to have about three years of experience, but unfortunately I only graduated for a year, and many procurement positions gave lower wages than the previous company, and I was unwilling to go to such a position, I don't know when I could find my favorite job, and I don't know if I should lower my standards.

I just graduated this year, specializing in mechanical design, manufacturing and automation. I stayed in the company for a few weeks, I felt unreliable, and I have left my job. At present, my heart is broken, and I just want to find a stable job as soon as possible to make ends meet.

It's strange, will you die if you don't look for a job, really, if you don't look for a job, there is no way out. Ay. Think about what you want to do first and find like-minded people to work with.