What is it that time can t heal?

Parting. An unexpected parting. Over time, thoughts will continue to accumulate new cognitive thoughts.

Every day I think about the things before the moment of parting, more and more thought-provoking thoughts, minute memories, analysis of getting along, every scene, every expression, every sentence. Each time, I think I get a deeper understanding, and then I transform it into a new memory.

My girlfriend passed away and we had been together for less than a year. It's very painful, we met on Tantan, she is very good, she was a national second-class athlete before, and now she is a flight attendant after graduation. We both have the same belief in Buddhism, she has been a vegetarian for 6 years, and I have been eating vegetarian for more than a year.

In less than a year, we met 3 times. The first time we met I went to her house, and the second and third time she came to my house to see me. She hadn't graduated from aviation college yet, and I was preparing for the bar exam.

Originally, the two of us planned to settle in Guangzhou or Sanya together in 19 years, get married and have children, but now everything is shattered. She fell ill at the beginning of October, and a sudden illness took her away, and for about ten days, there was no sign before, the woman I loved the most.

I was nine years old that year, and I was taken back to my grandmother's house by my mother during the summer vacation, because I was brought up by my grandmother since I was a child, so I had a special and special feeling of being close to my grandmother and my hometown, and I was very reluctant to go when I left, and I begged my mother to go back in a few days, but in the end I was dragged back home, and I was crying on the way home, and I felt very empty. Looking back on it now, I think I was funny at that time, but that's the sadness I could feel at that time.

Missing someone who is no longer in the world. Years have passed, and I am still sad when I think of my deceased loved ones. I can't tell the people around me about this pain.

I dreamed of him when I went to sleep, but when I woke up, I found that it was just a dream, and an incomparably huge sense of loss spread in my heart. Sometimes I forced myself to continue sleeping, just to see him in my dreams for a while. Just a little longer.

My husband and children accompany my father-in-law every day in my hometown, and day by day I watch the old man get thinner and thinner, pale, coughing up blood, blood in the stool, and experiencing cruel facts minute by minute, but there is nothing he can do. Today, I started to deal with the aftermath, my mother told me many days ago to prepare early, but I never told my husband, I can't say it, it seems that the life of the old man can be continued, I have such an illusion. When my husband said it, he seemed to sound calm, didn't he want me to see his vulnerability?

I also pretended to be calm. The surface is calm, but the inner undercurrent is latent and turbulent. If it is two women, it must be inevitable to cry.

Outside the house, my father asked my uncle about my uncle's lung cancer, and discussed how to open his mouth and said to my grandfather that my uncle couldn't last a few days, grandpa was 87 years old, and the white-haired person sent the black-haired person, and the whole family acted for the grandfather during the New Year, saying that the uncle went to Hainan Island to travel, and he couldn't go home for the New Year, and he couldn't go back to the Lantern Festival, so he was afraid, afraid that his grandfather wouldn't be able to hold it. Dad lost 20 pounds in a month, I was distressed but helpless, I was a senior in high school, 98 days of college entrance examination, my mother said that my uncle died and didn't want me to ask for leave to come back, let me concentrate on studying and don't care about family affairs. I said, he's my uncle, and I want to see him.

I was going to take the college entrance examination, and this time I went home to get my living expenses, but my mother said that I had no foundation and couldn't listen, and I didn't study well, and it was a waste to take money. All thoughts are lost, yes, just now. I never wanted to destroy my self-confidence, and it was my mother who destroyed me.

I feel like I'll never forget it for the rest of my life.

Some unforgettable things will slowly fade over time, but they will still leave traces in the heart, but they will slowly smooth out over time, and the heart will be relieved.

I think yes, I have been hurt a lot, but as time goes by, the emergence of new love, these are not problems, and the most painful time is when I just experienced it.