Please help find an essay no less than 600 Where to put my youth? 》

Is there a car that doesn't stop after starting, and keeps driving until the dream is in full bloom.

These days, the pendulum of time seems to slow down, and every minute is like a century. Whether standing, sitting, or lying down, it is so uncomfortable. I've been waiting, waiting for the next escape to begin.

I know I shouldn't have run away, and not everything can run away, but I don't really know what I'm going to do.

When I was young, I always had a wish, to carry only the fare with a backpack and a few simple clothes, and just like that, to go where I wanted to go, and start a solo trip.

But after all, wishes are just wishes, and we always have too many concerns and lack full courage, so wishes have always stayed in the imagination.

There's so much going on these days, or maybe the last two years.

For the first time in my life, I felt so lonely, and my heart was so cold, so cold.

For the first time in my life, I feel that after 20 years of life, I am still alone, with no relatives and no friends.

For the first time in my life, I felt that there was no trust between me and my mother, and the faith I had always relied on for a living collapsed, and my heart shook so badly that I couldn't calm down for a long time.

For the first time in my life, I really gave up on the girl I had liked for 11 years, and the hope of these years was lost in an instant, it was dark, and there was no light.

For the first time in my life, I felt that I had failed so much, and my 11-year thoughts were defeated by one sentence, and I lost, but I was very unconvinced.

For the first time in my life, I was so confused, I didn't know what to go, I didn't know what to do.

Everything came together at once, and there was a lot of confusion.

These days I've been thinking about what it means to be a man, what it takes to be a man.

In the process of this reflection, I discovered.

It turns out that my emotional preferences have always been so clear, I have always followed the trajectory of my heart, I will make unremitting efforts for what I think is worthwhile, stubborn persistence, love and hate, such words do not know whether it is appropriate or not.

It turns out that I always know what I want, and I will subconsciously reject the nasty things I don't like, whether it is people or things, and I can't force myself to spend energy on things I don't like.

It turns out that I have always had such low self-esteem.

It turned out that he was so cowardly, and he kept running away from the beginning of the year to the end of the year, from the beginning of the school to the end of the year, from the beginning of school to the holidays. I don't know how to answer, so I keep silent, and I don't try for fear of failure.

Things have turned out like this, beyond my expectations, everything is so bad, so desperate, I don't know where to start sorting out this messy relationship, how to get myself back on my feet.

Now, it's annoying, it's messy. I didn't know what to do, and I didn't think about what to do.

Maybe it's always been that I've been thinking too much and thinking too complicated, which has made my otherwise simple life so complicated.

I want to go to a strange place alone, keep moving forward, keep walking until I have no strength to walk, until I forget all my grievances, until I understand how I should live in the future?