When did you start learning to be careful?

That is, from my stepmother came to my house, she is not my own mother, no matter how good she is to me, she is not my own mother, there is a gap in between, so I won't cry and laugh after that.

It's that I've grown up and know that no one is qualified to spoil myself, in fact, I started when I was very young, probably elementary school, I used to take care of others, and I don't want others to be unhappy because of me.

Since graduating from junior high school, the more I grow up, the more careful I live, before I want to do something, I always look ahead and backward, the pursuit of perfection is serious, cranky, young people should have a positive attitude to do what they want to do or what they want to play, but I am not such a person, I always feel like I am submissive, I feel tired. ‍‍

Since the internship, I was afraid of other colleagues because I was older than me in the new environment, so I would carefully hide myself and try not to make mistakes and not make everyone hate me.

When I grew up, I started to support myself from myself, but it's also good, I have to be responsible for doing things, and I have more consideration. Everything can't go well. ‍‍

From the time I knew how cruel this society was, I relied on myself to be a man, not on anyone else, so I had to hide my feelings, otherwise others should laugh at me.

I am afraid of making mistakes at work, I am careful to treat the leader and the customer, and if I say the wrong thing to the customer, he complains to the leader, and he has a personality to the leader, and he will suppress it. I was afraid that I would be fired by my boss for making the slightest mistake. I'm afraid of this and that, don't talk about emotions, I don't even dare to speak, I can only say that I can't help it. ‍‍

The first time I moved, I didn't have my previous friends, they were all people I didn't know, so I naturally stopped talking to others, and I didn't cry easily and was afraid of other people's jokes.

After my dad died, I knew that no man would love me anymore, because my dad was the man who loved me the most in the world, and without him, I had to live well, live strongly, take care of my mother and brother, and not cry and laugh in front of them. Otherwise, it will hurt him.

Maybe it's from the beginning of life, from the moment you grow up, you gradually become cautious.

Some people are afraid of being hated so they are cautious, some people are afraid of hurting others so they are cautious, some people are cautious because they are not confident enough, they can't rely on and trust themselves, and some people care too much, they are afraid of change, they can't accept it and they are cautious, all kinds of things will make a person become cautious.

Then we will find that we cannot say everything because we are not children. Even if it may be a simple word, it becomes different when it spreads. Fear of gossip, fear of distraction, and even distrust.

There was no you before, but now I have you and I am afraid of losing you, there is a good saying, the more you care, the more humble you are.