When did you start being misfits?

College it! I feel like I've been getting back together since college.

Maybe after I went to college, everyone has their own ideas, we are a dormitory child, although we play together, but always feel bad, not so intimate, may have something to do with the gradually formed values, they are all delicate women in the family, I feel that I can't do anything, when everyone is busy doing something, they are in the dormitory to play Kuaishou, play games, and consume, never want to go out to see during the holidays, every day at home nest, play with mobile phones, Enjoy the time at home, maybe there is indeed that condition at home, but when you are so old, you shouldn't just want to play, at least to see the social life, not always feel that you live in this greenhouse.

I want to go out every time I have a holiday, not for anything else, I just want to see, in order not to be stupidly deceived after entering the society in the future, even if I can't make money, but I can see it for a long time.

There are also big differences in the concept of consumption, they feel that they want to buy anything, don't grieve themselves, just eat well, everyone in the province with a low level of consumption should not spend much money, but they still spend so much money, and they don't feel sorry for their parents at home.

But I don't care about that, because I don't have the ability to make money now, I don't want to spend so much money, I can't bear to spend my parents' hard-earned money, and if I wait for myself to make money in the future, I'm willing to buy a lot of things for myself, with a clear conscience.

These are the reasons for differences, different values produce different ideas, but even if you feel a little unsociable, you have to work hard to live, after all, you can't say that you don't fit in and ignore each other.

I think I started out of college, I was really uncomfortable after college, people have become different, even if it is a dormitory after college, I feel that people's hearts are a little farther away than people's hearts, each of them has their own careful thoughts, even if they get along with you very well on the surface, but when it comes to their own interests, all those calculations come out, and the true face leaks out, unlike junior high school and high school, the friendship between everyone is very simple, and they don't think about anything every day, There is not so much care, let alone how happy it is to play together.

Before I went to college, I always heard others talk about the points of attention in college, people in college know people and don't know their hearts, everyone has their own thoughts, I don't know if I don't go to college, I was scared, I was okay when I first arrived at school, but after a long time, I found that they were more and more difficult to serve, and they did not fit in.

Through one thing, I saw through each of them, that is, the school applied for poverty grants, our dormitory people applied for poverty grants, but there are not a few places in a class at all, of course we all want it, as soon as it is related to their own interests, they began to do whatever it takes, some secretly went to the instructor to say good things, and did not dare to let us know, some went to sue us in order to please the instructor, and some went to tell the instructor that she bought this and that all day long and was not poor at all. I also told the instructor that she would buy more than 300 lipstick, don't give her a bursary, through this incident, I really found that I am indeed not suitable to play with them, people are separated from the belly, I am really unsociable.

I've always felt that everyone has everyone's personality, which is very normal, but character is character, it's not good to have bad intentions, when I arrive at college, I feel that I don't fit in with others everywhere, the ideas are different, and the practices are not recognized by both parties, even if the things are different, each of them has more thoughts, so I can't play together, in fact, I think I'm just living according to my own wishes, there is no need to be the same as them, let alone pretend to be the same as them in order to be gregarious, it's too tiring, If you don't fit in, forget it, since you can't get along, just separate.

At the beginning of the second semester of the second year of junior high school, I was estranged from a few very good friends. I did it myself, and I was too possessive.

When I was in the second year of junior high school, D and I first met and had a good time, and then we met three other people, and the five of us played together. After class, we made an appointment with the toilet and the commissary, and we all made an appointment to wait for us to go together before going to school. At that time, the five people were like conjoined bodies.

But my sensitivity hurt me, because I met D first and became good girlfriends, but then D and another girl suddenly played well, and I had emotions. At that time, D also asked his brother to bring back two bracelets from outside, one for each of us. But the more I cared, the more I couldn't control myself, so I returned the bracelet to her, and then broke up again and quit the Gang of Five.

It was also quite embarrassing at that time, thinking that I had to be in a class in the third year of junior high school, and I was too naïve to do such a thing. But it's useless to regret that things have happened, and it's hard to change, friendship is the same as love, once there is a split in the middle, even in the middle of reconciliation, there is still that hurdle. After that, I focused all my attention on my studies and had less interaction with other people.

Especially when physical education class allows them to rest and activities, they all gather in groups, and I am like an outsider, hiding in a corner where no one is memorizing in order to disguise that I carry the knowledge that I carry with me.

The longer I go like this, the less I can communicate and talk to others, and after a few words, there will be no follow-up. In fact, I struggled in my heart, and I didn't want to do this, but I couldn't let go of that bit of self-esteem, so I let myself go farther and farther away from the normal trajectory. Even now, I have developed the habit of that time, but I walk behind with my roommate, and I don't talk much, and everyone in the class can't remember clearly.

Sometimes the roommate is a little embarrassed when he is not alone, so he walks to a place where no one is and sits and plays on his mobile phone, never saying more.