What experiences have you had that made you make the most important decision of your life?

Everyone's life experience is different, so the treatment of things is also very different, some people after experiencing some things, become more passionate about life, some people can not experience the blow and collapsed, so the experience makes themselves grow and become mature. At that time, I was an ignorant teenager, I didn't understand anything, I have been growing up healthily under the protection of my parents, I came out of college, got married and had children. Later, my mother fell ill, it was like the sky was falling for me, I prayed to God to leave my mother, even if the family was bankrupt, I went to ask for every opportunity to prolong my mother's life, I went to the temple to ask the gods and Buddhas to bless my mother's safety, and even prayed sincerely in a place that seemed to prolong my life.

How many sleepless nights, how many nights when I gritted my teeth and cried silently, but I didn't save my dear mother. My mother once said, you just don't know anything, when you lose the opportunity to see your mother, then you will grow up, and I also naughtily told my mother, I don't want my mother to leave, I don't want to. Mom couldn't resist the invasion of the disease, leaving a little Ni who would always love her, not worrying about everything about me, not pampering me, and I was lost to the bottom, there is only one soul looking for my mother in the world, I am like a wandering person, looking for that familiar figure in the sea of people, finding my happy love, but I can never find it back.

Slowly, under the care of my family, I accepted the reality, and for the people I loved, and for the people who loved me, I came out strong. I also completely changed my cynical character, and began to love this wonderful world, I love every family and friend around me, respect everyone who cares about me, love every flower, love every grass. Experience makes a person grow and mature, no matter what setbacks you encounter, tell yourself that you must be strong and move forward, and thank the world for letting us meet.

Just because of a small thing, it is enough to shatter what little kindness and willingness to give. It is like the surface of the water after a storm, which will soon be calm, and it will be difficult to stir up the waves. And in life, only setbacks make people wake up and understand.

A specific thing is enough to be fatal at a critical point, or to shed its skin if it doesn't die. From birth to the present, in recent years, I have gradually seen some difficulties in survival, the difficulties of life and the indifference and chilling of the environment. It's not that I want others to do anything, but I just feel that once there is something about interests, all kinds of warmth in my heart are instantly extinguished by the ice water of interests.

Once there is a big stake, that layer of warmth and affection is immediately as cold as frost, and they meet on a narrow road, passing by like passers-by. It's chilling, but it's everywhere. I used to work in a certain place, usually eat and drink, like brothers.

A certain salary is paid because there is not enough money. If you want to send it together next month, there will be a few who have not landed, so they will fight, for fear that they will not be able to send their own ......I feel cold when I think about it. Of course, this is not worth mentioning, but it is somewhat disappointing.

To say that it has completely changed, I am afraid it is a denial of the original intention, and the soul is blind"Dust"There is still a process. What's more, the sunshine of this world is sprinkled on everyone, face it calmly, and revise its views on the environmental and social groups, so that life may not be so tiring.

At the beginning of my Ph.D., I realized that the future of science and technology is based on probability and statistics. After that, he decided to change his direction to research related to statistical data analysis. It laid the foundation for me to enter the quantitative trading industry.

In my first job, the foreign exchange department of Knight Capital did very well and learned a lot. But I always felt that my vision was too narrow, so I quit my job and went to the bank to do foreign exchange. As a result, the year after I left, the knight capital made a mistake** fell into a mess, and luckily escaped the catastrophe.

Later, it was found that the foreign exchange industry is indeed dominated by banks, and everything they see and hear is a level higher than that of buyers. Since then, for so many years, the harassment of headhunters can basically have more than one a month on average, and the bonus month is even more annoying week after week. The financial industry, especially trading positions, is a high-risk occupation.

The harassment of headhunters made me know that I don't have to worry about losing my job, and I don't have to worry about having nowhere to go if I want to change jobs, which is actually a reassuring thing.

12 years is about to graduate, and at that time the job has been found; At that time, I heard that a classmate in high school (who had been a tablemate for a year) had passed away due to depression. Suddenly I felt that I should do more while I was young. So I secretly signed up for the volunteers of the Western Plan, and chose Xinjiang, the Xinjiang Production and Construction Corps.

I told my family a week before I left, and there was a big fight. Although I didn't take the civil service exam or become a village official after I came back, it seemed like a wasted year, but it was really the best experience in my life.

In my life, there have been major changes, because I saw the fragility of life, since then, I understand, life is impermanent, and then I understand a lot, the wisdom that the ancients said, the so-called three years in Hedong and three years in Hexi, the impermanence of heaven, the growth and decline of yin and yang, etc., with the increase of life experience, the understanding of impermanence is more profound, and finally understand that the only unchanging law in the world is that everything in the world will change, birth, old age, sickness and death, into living and living in bad emptiness, and after seeing it, it will no longer be, too persistent. I understand, go with the fate of the years, and refine my heart through the past.

That was more than ten years ago, because of a meal, my life changed. It made me understand that no matter what happens, I can only rely on myself, and I am my backer. If you are not strong, you don't need to talk about everything. Thanks for that meal.

--- my father