What are some of the moments when your life feels dark?

30 years old, I haven't worked for two years after giving birth, I came out to look for a job that seemed very simple before, I didn't reply at all when I sent out my resume, I cried on the bus on the way back from the interview, and I felt so useless for the first time.

I'm 22 years old this year, and I'm feeling where to go, and it's dark when I say it's dark, but it's not dark either, because I know what I'm going to do, and I know what I'm supposed to do, but I don't really have much time, I get home from work at 7 o'clock in the evening, I finish dinner at 8 o'clock, I read a book for three and a half hours, and I only put in it for two hours, and then I get up at six o'clock.

I'm 22 years old, and I'm always afraid that I'm not as good as others, work, darkness, and a mess in life, in short, life, why be so serious, don't hold on if you can't hold on, you can start over with anything. When you fall into the pit, you have to find a way to get out on your own, how can others rescue you, you don't want to come out yourself, what's the use.

Sometimes I feel that life is dark, I can only rely on rolling my eyes to illuminate the eyes, 20 years old, there is no hope of going to graduate school, it is difficult to find a job, I don't know if I can stick to it with my boyfriend, and I can't help but panic at the thought of living alone in a completely unfamiliar environment.

Four years ago, when my husband lost 1.4 million, our family had nothing, just me and the child, and finally he left, the child belonged to me, I was with my parents, he didn't give the child a penny for four years, and now I still work very hard every day to raise the child, my daughter will have a good life when she grows up, during that time I don't want to experience it in this life, I remember it vividly, and hate him for a lifetime!

Take the salary of an intern to do the work of two serious employees, what can I do, I can have an internship place, there is a place to make money instead of spending the family's money I am very pleased, I work overtime every day, a few days ago I saw a few more gray hairs in the mirror, cut a flat head and finally not obvious, some time ago overused eyes, for several days the right eye is swollen, all bloodshot, vision is also temporarily reduced, or continue to make a report on the computer, in addition to the bridge surface measurement data. Every day, the leaders on both sides urge me to urge me to do that, what this data will be given to me tonight, if something goes wrong, it is to be responsible, what will be measured at the end of the year, this report must be completed in the next few days, one person carries the workload of two people, and the pressure of two people.

I'm an introvert. This does not mean that I am closed, shy and unable to deal with myself, on the contrary, I am used to being alone, I am good at reconciling with loneliness, and I have a strong sense of insight and compassion. I don't have a wide circle, but anyone I am willing to make friends with must be close friends who talk about everything.

At the same time, I am very rational, I care more about logic than emotional rendering, and it is even difficult to be hinted at and shaken. If I have to say, I was not lucky enough to experience a carefree childhood and a sense of security in my first 1 or 4 lives, and I was not happy enough with this fact. In short, such a low mood and state are not new to me, but every time I feel extremely overwhelmed, as if I can't hold on for another second.

And this time, it's the closest I've ever gotten to really not being able to hold on.