What is it like to watch yourself slowly live into the way you hate?

In fact, living as what you hate the most is not that you suddenly do something that you wouldn't do before or say something you wouldn't say. But suddenly one day, you find that your previous thoughts about making yourself better slowly fade away with time, and your previous habits and plans have changed with your current life habits. One day after you take a shower, stand in front of the mirror, watch the figure you used to maintain become a bucket waist, every time you see the supper on the table at night, you can't help but eat, and you start to have some different ideas and perspectives from before, and your previous ideas, plans, and ambitions have changed over time.

I began to comfort myself in my heart, and now it is time to mature and be able to take charge on my own. In fact, there will be no sadness and disappointment, some are just really fragrant.

In fact, it feels very complicated, after all, when I was a child, I never imagined that I would become such a person in the future. Smile in front of people you don't like. Doing things you don't like.

I'm a little numb, too. Also, don't think of your favorite interest book as your major or career. I think slowly you're going to get sick of it.

Like me.

I also hate myself now, becoming more and more drifting with the crowd, the friends around me know that they are not very compatible with their three views, but they can't let go of this friendship after being together for five years, go to college and mess around every day, have no goals, say some nonsensical words every day, keep smiling in the face of people they don't like, become superficial, become hypocritical, I really hate the way I am now, but I won't change, because I don't have the courage and I'm afraid of starting all over again. You can just go with the flow.

Sometimes I really watch myself do something I don't like to do, regret and want to change, but I can't afford the opportunity cost of pulling the whole body, so I can only try to avoid my dislike when I become annoying.

Just broke up. Half an hour ago. I said to him.

You can't give me the life I want. Love can't be everything. I like not to eat it as a meal.

This sentence is this kind of behavior. It's the one I used to look down on the most, and I don't think I'll ever do it. I used to think that love could overcome all difficulties, but I don't know when it started, and it became blurred.

I used to think that it was good to be happy and happy. Not anymore, because there are more things to think about, and there are more things to worry about. I used to think that I would definitely marry the person I love the most.

Right now. If I get married one day, that person will definitely not be what I like.

<> "Live as you hate it."

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The environment in which I grew up taught me that there was no love in this world, and that there might be short-lived impulses, but that's it.

Some people say that our problem is that we don't have children. But I don't think so. Because if I can't stop myself from telling myself that life is a sure happiness, how can I say to another life that I can give you happiness as long as you come?

This is not responsible for filial piety.

Many people say that I have matured, maybe it was easier to think about things more ideally, and my ambition was naturally greater. Now, I don't think much about the future, and I don't expect anything.

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I remember Guo Jingming saying in "Little Times": Maybe we will all end up being what we hate, but before that, in the face of boundless darkness, let me stand side by side with you. In the past, when I read these literature, I would only look up to see if there was any sadness at a 45-degree angle, and then laugh it off, pretending that I had been literary and artistic.

But later I found out that in the end of literature and art, there is still an incomprehensible reality, as if we can't figure out how we can live the way we hate the most.

I lived like I hated.

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I remember Guo Jingming saying in "Little Times": Maybe we will all end up being what we hate, but before that, in the face of boundless darkness, let me stand side by side with you. In the past, when I read these literature, I would only look up to see if there was any sadness at a 45-degree angle, and then laugh it off, pretending that I had been literary and artistic.

But later I found out that in the end of literature and art, there is still an incomprehensible reality, as if we can't figure out how we can live the way we hate the most.

There are two reasons why some people end up living like they hate: First, not everyone is so good, they will become masters, and their abilities are at a certain distance from reality, so when something happens, they can't deal with the results at least expected, and they gradually become numb and disappointed. Second, life is compelled.

When people reach middle age, they have to support their families, and the pressure is very high. The original desire for a better life slowly became blurred in the face of reality, and I felt pressured all day long because I had to be forced by life, for housing and car loans, and for my children to go to better schools. People are driven by interests in the workplace, and we are forced to do things that we don't want to do and say things we don't want to say.

Therefore, in the face of various reasons, some people live as they hate.

I used to be very motivated to study, but now I don't know what's wrong, and I suddenly want to mess up, I don't have any energy to study, and I'm still addicted to games.

Maybe it's a lack of goals, you can find a reason to work hard, maybe you will be motivated.

When we really live as "what we hate", it can be understood as,We have begun to face our shadows and try to make them a part of ourselves. This is not a bad thing, and in a way, it is the only way to integrate your personality and become your true self.

Psychologist Zeng Qifeng believes that "you hate a person because he has something in him; You often criticize someone in front of others, but subconsciously you want to be close to them. In psychoanalytic terms, it can be explained in terms of "projection" and "reverse formation".

When you list the traits that you hate, you will find that these traits are actually more or less possessed by yourself, but at the level of consciousness, it is difficult for you to admit and face them, because most of these traits are not allowed in morality or reality.

Those parts of us that are not accepted by ourselves, we often "project" them. Just like many people will hate people who love to be showy and show off, and always think that such people are too narcissistic. In fact, the "narcissism" they hate is exactly the part of them that they also have, but cannot be accepted by themselves.

Because of the difference in thought, the track of life has deviated, but it can still be driven back, you will hate yourself, and you will definitely like yourself. Life is a game where death is the end, and most people have the opportunity to live as they like. There is also the appearance that you hate, others may not hate it, it may be that there is something wrong with your self-identity.

When I was a child, I always felt that I could become an atmosphere, better than the people around me, I felt that I was smart, capable, and full of hope for the future. When I grew up, I realized that I should stop being self-righteous, stop being willful, and stop being naïve.

I used to hate people who have no ambition and don't seek to be motivated, but now I feel that being ambitious is a kind of happiness, I have this simple ambition but I don't have the ability to match it, what is the use of wanting this ambition?

I used to hate pessimistic and negative people the most, but now I prefer mourning culture, negative energy, which allows me to see reality clearly, recognize myself, and not have to live in blind illusions.

I thought I could settle myself, I could take care of my parents, I could win for the people I loved, I could have a good future, everything was just what I thought, hahahahahaha! It's ridiculous to say, and I feel like I'm God, and I can live as I imagined, which is ridiculous, ridiculous.

I finally understood the sentence: From now on, you must not have the slightest nostalgia for this world.

I used to think that as long as I worked hard, I could have a better life, but now I still don't have a good time, I always feel that I still don't work hard enough, and I still need to work hard, but how hard should I work and how hard I work. I felt tired, but I didn't dare to slack off. I'm afraid that I'm not as good as others, and if I don't work hard, I'm even worse than others.

In my 20s, I feel that my life has been ruined, hopefully, I can't see a little outline in the future, how can there be any life to talk about, I don't expect anyone to feel sorry for me, it doesn't matter, I will carry it myself when the sky falls, if one day I can't bear it, I will say goodbye to the world.

I'm used to being alone, and suddenly one day there is a person who intrudes into my life, and I don't dare to take that step, I will only retreat and retreat, I think that I am not worthy of love, nor worthy of sympathy, so slowly wither!

I hated myself more and more, I looked in the mirror and asked myself, you didn't live the way your parents liked, you didn't live the way you liked, you lived more beautifully and lived like others, what happened to you? How can it be so embarrassed, so worthless.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Sometimes I think, one day I left, maybe on the bridge of Naihe, Meng Po asked me: She said that you have any regrets in this life, maybe my only regret is that I really shouldn't have come to this world, I have no meaning to the world, but I have suffered in this life.

I lived my life as I hated the most, how ironic!