How have I always been unconfident and unhappy

Don't think too much about yourself.

You're just thinking too much about yourself, and of course you don't think so. Because you don't know what it means to be truly considerate of others. Because in the past twenty years, the concept of other people in your mind has changed considerably.

I don't think your problem now is to become a determined person who fights for his ideals, but one thing you are right about is that you need to become a mature person.

Purity is a kind of thing in your bones, but you don't need to let others know about your behavior, which will only become a reason for others to alienate you.

People always say things with a strong purpose, what's the meaning of life, and don't even make a joke with a smile?

You need to think about it and gradually lower your posture to communicate with others, and you will find that not all people are what you think.

First of all, I'm glad to see your question.

Because I've felt everything you mentioned earlier, and I think I understand how you feel.

Growing up, I didn't have many friends, and I didn't want to meet so many people.

Because that kind of feeling, as you say, is superficial and fake.

I'm lonely, but I don't feel lonely, I still love the world.

I walk alone, I will laugh when I see the small flowers on the side of the road, I read a book alone, and if I see a feeling, I will take a notebook and copy it out, life is simple and beautiful.

I have never forgotten what my homeroom teacher told me when I was in elementary school:

There is no lack of beauty in this world, what is lacking is the eye to find it.

If you have such a pair of eyes, I believe that your mindset and your world will change.

Bless you!

I think it's necessary for you to get a doctor to clear ......

Without friends, you can't get affirmative ...... from others

That's not going to work

I'm 18 years old, so I don't think it should be like this.

Let's see a doctor.

It's hard to open it on your own.

You can do everything, why are you still unconfident, inconsistent, self-conflicting, most of the people who are not confident are people with insufficient ability, since you are good in every aspect, why worry about yourself being inferior to others.

Only you can help yourself.

Since everything is good, why not be confident