Will you miss her who you once had a crush?

I think I think about it occasionally. After all, I am very happy now, and what I remember is only the original youth.

Yes, when I like someone, I try to understand everything about them and try to learn.

The object of my first crush is a very smart classmate who likes programming and mathematics. My mathematical thinking is relatively poor, and it takes me several times longer to understand what he easily understands. Every time I hear his calm voice methodically explain the solution to the problem in class, I feel extremely admired.

Running exercises, doing exercises, or taking physical education classes, I always secretly watch his activities, but I don't want to show it, as long as I look at him and it's very pleasant, but at this time I just have a good feeling.

I found his ID in the school post bar by chance.,Curious to open his post record and favorite post bar.。 I remember he was posting in Firefox, Chrome, Minecraft, etc., and that was the first time I knew about so many things that were so new to me at the time. For the first time, I realized the gap between myself and my classmates who were so close to me.

After more than a month, I gradually learned a little bit of general concept in the process of constantly using these terms, and realized that he still likes games, and at the same time, I pay more attention to him in the process.

Soon after the summer vacation, I nervously bought a beautiful notebook and suddenly decided to start jitting down information about his hobbies. That summer vacation was really full of fun, and in my spare time, I wrote those information that I thought were novel.

That's when I started getting into games.

After that, I found his own personal **, and there were a lot of small programs and whimsical fantasies written by himself, and I immediately felt so talented.

Since then, I have liked him, and I have worked hard to learn the Olympiad, and I often deliberately ask him a difficult problem that took a long time to understand (otherwise he told me that it would be too embarrassing for me to understand for a long time, and I still have vanity), anyway, I feel very happy.

The results have also improved very quickly. Looking at his serious appearance in class, I felt that I had to work harder to close the gap. Although it didn't work out.

His grades are generally in the top 10 of his grade. Because of him, I went from the first 100 to the top 20. In the end, I was ranked 27th in the high school entrance examination.

He was second in his grade.

As expected, in the final third year of junior high school, he was admitted to the provincial key high school, but I didn't.

And so....Naturally, there is distancing.

Although this is only three years of silent staring by myself, although he now has a girlfriend....But all in all, I miss the days when I watched him work hard and thank him for being who he is now.

Four years of crush, one year of open love. Love to see him, any news about him will be heartwarming. Five years, all the stupid things were only done for him, and now that it has passed, I don't like it anymore, for him, there is less entanglement, and I, let go of an obsession, the future is nothing more than a dish worth chewing.

Have I ever had a crush on someone, I think a crush is a sign of cowardice and timidity, and if I like someone, I boldly confess to him.