An essay on the topic of I long to grow up .

I aspire to grow up to compose.

When I was a child, I used to look up at the big sister in the courtyard and exclaim, "It's so good to look up!" "I used to think that as long as I grew up, I could have such a high IQ and carry a big schoolbag ......

So, I often asked my mother, "When will I grow up?" Mom always said over and over again, "Soon, soon......."”

After a long wait, I had become a junior high school student, and the report card I was holding in my hand added to my sorrow. Although I have not fully grown up, I strongly feel that my worries have increased and my burden has increased.

When I was a child, when I listened to "I Don't Want to Grow Up", I felt stupid and thought: What's wrong with growing up, how comfortable and interesting I am when I grow up, I must grow up quickly. But now, I regret it, and I want to never grow up again.

I remember when I was not in the third grade, every day after school, just after arriving at the door, Xiaolei and I would hand our schoolbags to our parents, and then play in the yard, using our imagination to make up a lot of interesting games, until my parents angrily repeatedly called us home for dinner, we would reluctantly leave.

Now, as soon as school is out every day, it is undoubtedly "each back to his own home, each to his own mother", as soon as he gets home, he puts down his schoolbag and writes his homework. However, I am very glad that our teacher has the least homework assignment in the whole grade. After finishing my homework, I no longer want to play with my best friends, I just hold the TV and watch it non-stop.

When I was a child, when my father and I went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, I saw an injured bird, I took it home in distress, abrased it with medicine, tied the wound with gauze, fed it water, and gave it millet to eat. When it healed, it was returned to nature.

I once bought many rabbits behind my parents' backs, and one of them was inadvertently fed by my parents and died, but I had a big fight with my parents, and then I carried it to the yard with Xiaolei, cried and buried it, and built a monument with bricks, although it was demolished by others the next day.

I used to have rabbits now, but when I died, I just threw them in the trash. When the fish die, they just pour into the toilet, and although I like small animals now, I don't love them with my heart. I used to think about growing up a little more, and when I had to dissect the body of a small animal with my own hands in biology class, I would inadvertently shiver.

I'm still a little bit happy because I'm aware of this transformation, which shows that I'm not fully grown up.

Is this what growing up is? I've lost some of my compassion and love, and all I've gained is trouble and burden. Growing up comes at a price, and it is to exchange happiness and innocence for maturity. I don't want to grow up!

I will not yearn for a summer full of flowers in the spring, nor will I yearn for a snowy winter in the autumn when the fruits are abundant. However, from time to time, I will hum the joyful nursery rhymes of my childhood to reminisce about that sweet time.

I no longer want to grow up, but I will not back down in the face of its arrival.