Am I having a bit of a psychological problem?

I suggest you choose to jump off a building.

You are about the same age as me, both are about twenty years old, in fact, this kind of psychology is understandable, there is nothing abnormal, I want to open up. There is this feeling of shyness and stubbornness, because you feel that looking for her to get money is the same as looking for money from your family when you were a child, and you don't get a nominal salary, and you will feel awkward in your heart, so you have a resistance mentality, and you don't have to make a fuss. I'll tell you, you still have to take the money you should take, don't be embarrassed, since the boss lady is good, you tell her, I will come to you regularly to get money, so that I will use the money regularly.

This is equivalent to receiving a salary, and it may feel better.

You have a somewhat cowardly personality, looking ahead and being cautious, since you can ask these questions here, then don't hesitate to get out of this environment.

From your description, I know that your company's wage arrears are very serious, what is the reason, I really can't think of an objective reason for not paying money and going to the boss for lack of money. Is it that the boss lady is a distant relative of yours, and you were introduced to work by your family, so you feel guilty about quitting?

It doesn't have to be like this, everyone lives for themselves, lives for the people they love, and you don't have to stick to the world's eyes, or the evaluation of others, no matter what others say, you are still yourself.

I sometimes think about one thing for a long time, and I have to worry about the gains and losses, but when I actually do it, I realize that everything is nothing more than that.

What can be the best and what can be the worst?

It's not a psychological problem.

You have to think like this, you don't pay a salary, but you don't have living expenses, and the money you want is earned through your labor. It's not to borrow him, it's not to beg for it, it's just a normal request.

But I don't know, why don't you pay your salary? Are you still dry? Don't you think that's a bit unfair? Or maybe there's another reason.

Your boss is terrible too. Why don't you pay them when you work for them? Don't be afraid, because you haven't done anything bad, you take it for granted that you want to be paid for your labor, there is nothing timid, and there is no psychological problem... Anyway, if you're going to quit, just pluck up your courage.

You are cowardly, and the salary is your own, what do you dare not do.

Maybe you're thinking too much, maybe your mind is too fragile to stand a little blow, as long as you can see a little bit. I hope you work hard.

It seems that you care a lot about this job and care a lot about the opinion of the boss lady. But we need to survive, that's your deserved money. Relax and take it. You can also say: what do I need to do with the money?