What is it like to have someone you once loved pass away?

Both of my lovers are gone. For the sake of the children and the elderly, live strongly! Now in my third marriage, it's been more than twenty years, and he is kind and kind to me and the children!

Others look at me well, I have not been able to be at peace mentally for more than 20 years, the first to go out to do business, I don't see anyone dead or dead, we are free love, I lost my soul to find him for three whole years, every night I went to the train station to pick up the train at ten o'clock, my mother was afraid that I would go crazy, and found me another one, I held the idea of not delaying my brother, married, the run-in was almost, he got out of the car and was killed by the gangsters who robbed the car. At that time, my mother looked at me, I said shock is shock, mentally ill, not many days after I drank pesticides, now I still remember that my brain understood when I didn't let me help, my teeth were bitten and exploded, three days later, I opened my eyes, saw my parents with abrupt white hair, understood that I was wrong, and I have never done anything stupid since then! It's easy to say, but now when I pass by the hearse, I mourn and rejoice, and my heart still hurts like a wire brush, and I never look at it, and I die of discomfort.

Until now, I am also looking forward to leaving early and getting rid of it early, I hate people who say cool things the most, what Kefu, what broom stars, I tell you, before the accident, they are also good, we are also very affectionate! Don't rub salt on your wounds, be kind!

Eleven years ago, my lover left me in his sleep. He wasn't with me at the time. When I received the news, I didn't cry.

I just feel like I can't breathe. Lips, hands and feet were numb, and my mind was blank. When I saw him, he was as quiet as if he were asleep.

I wept silently, babbled a lot of words, never touched his body, and I want to always remember his warm appearance. There are children studying at home, and there is a gray-haired mother-in-law, and I am full of thinking about how to face them and how to comfort them. There are a lot of relatives, friends and colleagues, and there are many things to take care of.

I couldn't sleep after taking 2 sleeping pills. I almost fainted the moment I closed the coffin...At the end of 2016, I sent my mother-in-law away, and I took the place of my lover to support his mother, and I fulfilled my promise to him. My child has also graduated from college and is working in education.

I'm also retired and my life is much easier. People are not as fragile as they imagined, nor are they as strong as they imagined, and no matter how bad things happen, life still has to go on. People's emotions are elastic, believe in yourself, and the biggest support in life is your own tolerant and strong heart.

My lover has passed away, and although I am miserable, helpless, lonely, and lonely, I must also learn to be strong. I want to know how to love myself, love myself, and cherish myself! Because, my love, will go to a place that I can't find, he will never be able to accompany me again, but I know that he will leave forever with endless concern for me...I don't want my lover to care about me in heaven, so I want to be happy, happy, peaceful, and happy!

This is also a repayment of my love!

My old man died on May 30, 2012 lunar calendar, this pain is really difficult to face, on the same day, God is pouring rain, I really cry with the sky, although the old man is not strong, it is really good for me, because life was difficult at the time, he was reluctant to eat, always returned to me to eat, in my second major surgery, every morning he only ate two light packets, in 2005, I had the second operation, unfortunately shock, one day I was in the sterile ward, I can only see once a day, that day I was a little conscious, the door opened, There was a person, I didn't know very well at the time, he walked to my bed, took my hand and wept, and then I fell into a coma, so far the memories will only burst into tears, no matter what, I can't erase his memories, it has been more than six years, I miss it every day, I wish he was safe in heaven, if I can buy it with money, I am willing to do anything, this is impossible, no way.

In 2017, he was very ill and began to write a will, at that time I never thought of leaving him, even if I smashed the pot and sold iron, I had to save him, I didn't leave a way back for myself, I would grow up with my children, I didn't think about leaving another family, he slowly got better. When I knew that he betrayed me, my heart was dead, I would not forgive him, the future road no matter whether he was good or bad, I had nothing to do with me, the marriage was divorced, it was just a temporary stay together just for the sake of children, I was looking for someone who was good to me, someone who gave me love and gave me a sense of security, someone who was willing to hold my hand and accompany me for the rest of my life, he wanted to turn around, but I won't wait for you in the same place.

It's been almost half a year since my mother left me, except for the heart-rending pain, it was the long night of slowly crying alone, and my mother left home, there was no position, and there was no way out.

The person I love the most in this world is my grandmother.

When my parents had to go out to work hard since I was a child, I grew up with my grandmother. I am the grandma grandchildren of the largest species, and I am a woman, and many of the grandmother's generation should have a patriarchal phenomenon, but, fortunately, my grandma did not. Generally speaking, the youngest person in the family should be the smallest, no matter how much it is the biggest, but my grandmother is an exception, she loves me the most.

My younger siblings, my cousins and cousins know this. A large part of it should be because I was brought up by my grandmother.

I've been a foodie since I was a kid. The happiest thing is to go to the market with my grandmother, for the simple reason that there is a lot of food to sell. Every time I saw something, I told my grandmother that I wanted it, and asked her to buy it for me.

But at that time, my grandmother was always very picky, saying that she would not buy me anything, only buy me some hawthorn chips, or occasionally buy a fruit. Ignore all my other requests. Sometimes I don't buy anything...When I was a child, I would occasionally get angry with my grandmother because of this.

But since I had younger siblings, my grandmother would usually leave me more delicious food, and my share would always be more.

Later, when I went back to my hometown on a monthly vacation to go shopping with my grandmother, I noticed that my grandmother had changed. Maybe I haven't seen my grandmother miss me for a long time, and when she sees something in the market, she asks me if I want this? Do you want to eat it...When I was a child, I was noisy for everything because I was ignorant, but when I grew up, I wanted to save more money for my grandmother and keep it for myself to buy delicious food and use.

She's really the person I love the most. I can't imagine that I will never find her in this world again, and I will never see her again. When I was younger than now, I even thought that when my grandmother was gone, I would die too, but anyway, my grandmother was gone, and I wouldn't be able to live.

If my grandmother really wasn't there one day, I would definitely break down. I will definitely wash my face with tears every day, and I will lose weight quickly. Although I really want to be thin now, when I think about it, I feel that it doesn't really matter whether I am thin or not.

When I was younger, I was always frail and sickly, and the doctors said that I couldn't grow up, but my grandmother still took me to the doctor with tears in her eyes. Luckily, I'm a chubby girl now. But every time I went home to see my grandmother, my grandmother would say distressed how I was so thin.

This lovely grandmother who has loved me all her life and even thinks that she loves me more than I love my father, I tell me everything in my heart, and I complain to me about any grievances in my heart, I also love her with my life. I used to think about losing her, but I absolutely couldn't accept it, so I often refused to think about some problems like this, because I knew that I couldn't bear it at all, so I chose to escape. But at least for now, I will definitely love her well and be filial to her, while everything is still in time.

It's an if-and-go question, but it's a question I hope never holds. Because once it is established, it may be an indelible blow to me.

The person I love the most is my grandfather, just one thing that everyone who knows me knows. My friends can make a lot of big jokes on me, but the only bottom line I can't touch is my grandpa. I was lost to my grandfather when I was only five months old, because I was a girl.

So my parents didn't have much of an idea to take me. Now my grandfather feels sad when he thinks about it, because he thinks that I am still so young that I don't have a mother to take with me, and I don't even drink much breast milk. So he felt sorry for me.

In my heart, my grandfather is the greatest person in the world, he was ignorant when he was a child, and his family was poor, so every time I ate meat, I would grab a lot of food by myself, but my grandfather would only say, you eat, if you like to eat, you can eat more. If I wasn't a director, I really thought that my grandfather didn't like to eat meat. Grandpa wouldn't allow us to have snacks, but every time he went out and I said bring some snacks back, he would really buy some snacks.

When I was a child, I asked my grandfather to peel the apple, but after peeling, I didn't eat it in time, and the apple turned yellow, and then I would lose my temper and not eat it. Then my grandfather would peel me one apple after another, and he would never blame me.

But my grandfather didn't spoil me all about me, he would also teach us to be good people. One time the school organized an outing, and I wanted to bring a little more money, but my grandfather didn't give me that much, so I went to my grandfather's room at night to steal money. I didn't think my grandfather would know, but on the weekend morning, when no one in the family was there, he pulled me aside and asked me if I had stolen money, and I didn't admit it at first, but my grandfather told me a lot, and finally I was ashamed and admitted my mistake.

Grandpa's love for us has penetrated into all aspects of life, and when we mention this person, we will feel warm and moved. When I went out for job interviews, I used to mention my grandfather and burst into tears. Because it is because of my grandfather that I am thriving now.

Sometimes I really think, what is the meaning of living in the world? Just to repay my grandfather for taking care of me.

I also thought that my grandfather would leave me one day when he was so old. Now I can't help but cry when I think about it, so I think if that day comes, it will probably cause a lot of damage to my psyche. So I just hope that this day will come as late as possible!

Just give me a little more time to take care of him!

I once suffered from depression, and the whole person's feeling of the outside world is that of a walking dead who is not painful or numb. Because it's not just the people you love the most, but also the people who love you the most. You know that the person who left doesn't want you to be like this, so you force yourself to be busy, and you don't dare to calm down, because you can't control your head, and the feeling of wanting to escape but becoming clearer and clearer makes you breathless.

The most depressing thing for you is that when you are panting for pain for the person who is leaving, the people around you tell you not to be like this, telling you not to be so sad. Looking at the indifferent eyes of the people around him who didn't understand, my heart hurt even more, not for myself, for the person who left. Because you feel that the person who has left is the only one for life.

How helpless she must have been when she was willfully angry with her. When you haven't been nice to her yet, you find that you never get a chance again. The desperation of wanting to tear everything apart makes your heart feel as if it is being clutched by an invisible hand.

After a long time, you seem to be still the carefree and heartless person in the eyes of others. Only you know how scared you are when you are alone. When you think of the joy of being with her, you will always silently think in your heart that it will never happen again.

When you get what you want, that joy is washed away by not being able to share it with her. You can see people when you want to see them, and suddenly one day you can't see them anymore......You always feel that something is missing around you, and when you see her tombstone, you realize that she is missing. The person you love also loves you and is also by your side, what a happy thing!

If there is such a person, please cherish it, after all, there are always things in life that you can't predict and can never change when they happen.

It's true that there is such a person around, but I can't say that I love deeply, but I have a good relationship with me, and I have a good relationship with our family, and when she parted, our whole family was shocked and uncomfortable, and when we received the bad news, everyone couldn't believe it was true.

She's an aunt of mine, and the relationship with me is — she's an old classmate of my mom. When I was in elementary school, I was very good with my mother, and I often went to my grandmother's house for dinner, which my mother told me, they were like sisters, and my grandmother even recognized her as a goddaughter, as if she were her own. Usually for the New Year's holiday, it is still the birthday of the family, and she will come when the family is reunited, because in everyone's opinion, she is already our relative.

She is also very good to me, every time I meet her, she will call me by my nickname very warmly, when I go to their house, she will also be very warm to entertain me, bring me something to eat, she will also let their little brother teach me to play football, play ball, to be honest, it was also my first contact with such a thing as football haha.

It was about five years ago, not long before the Spring Festival. Every family was preparing New Year's goods, and when she came to our house, she brought me a lot of food. But three days later, in the evening, when I was playing a game, my mother suddenly walked in and said that she and my dad were going out, she said "your aunt died suddenly", I was confused at that time, the first two days were not very good, and brought me food, why it was gone, and later confirmed that it seemed to be a sudden death, the reason is still unclear.

She is about the same age as my mother, she is only forty years old, what a good person, why is it gone, our family was very sad at that time, and now I still visit their house during the Chinese New Year, but she is no longer there.

She loves to play QQ Farm and grab parking spaces, and even after so many years, her ranking is still the first among my friends. Her QQ avatar is no longer lit up, and her personality signature stays at the sentence "Happy life, cherish the people in front of you".