What is it like to be disgusted to be too thin?

I feel disgusted that my face is too thin, if others are jealous of me, my face is too thin, ** is not good? I myself am also very thin, and my small face is also very good-looking, if you look at those people with big faces, their faces are like a basin, and my small face will find that they are very good-looking.

I'm also very helpless, sometimes I even want to be fat, but I just can't get fat, this is easy to lose weight, there is really no need to be too envious, because the body is not very good if you are too thin.

When I play with my friends, my friends will always say that I am too thin, and then they will say that I am thin, and I am not good-looking, and I will eat a lot, and I think these guys just want me to be fat with them, and I guess I am thin.

At this year's annual meeting of the company, a colleague who I hadn't seen for a long time suddenly said how did I lose so much weight, is it very hard? It's skinny to the bone. Immediately I felt very embarrassed, very speechless, I don't want to be so thin, I also eat a lot, sometimes in the face of everyone's pity and care, I am also helpless.

I've also seen a doctor for this, but I can't figure out why.

Mother: Son, don't go out today.

Me: Why?

Mom: There is a strong wind today, and the wind force is level 7.

Me: It's only level seven, it's okay, don't worry about me.

Mom: Kid, I feel like a level 5 wind can blow you into the sky.

Me: Uh...

In the past, my neighbors and relatives always said to me: "You are too thin, not good-looking, thin and thin". I thought to myself that this is called skinny beauty, what do you know, and I feel very helpless and angry.

But now that I'm fat, to be precise, I'm fat, and then some people say, "Look at you, you have a good conscience."

So far, I haven't been disgusted for being too thin, I've been chubby, and my family says you should eat less, don't eat. I finally put a winter and summer vacation to eat something at home, but I was not allowed to eat, but I had no choice but to survive in the cracks, and the daily conversation was "Is it worth eating less than the food you cooked?" and "Eat more at home and don't eat back,**" Helpless.

I weigh 90 pounds at 1.68 meters, and every time I go out with my boyfriend, my boyfriend always says that I am as thin as a bamboo pole, and a gust of wind can away, so every time I walk, he can hold my hand, and being thin is also good.