When did you get the idea of growing old alone?

In the beginning, when I thought and did things differently from those around me, I felt like I wanted to be lonely and grow old.

I know that everyone in the world is different, and I can't judge anyone with my own opinions, and I also have my own opinions, and I don't think others should show incomprehension.

My mind was cultivated in the environment in which I grew up, and because the environment in which I grew up was different, I don't want you to understand, but I hope not to oppose it. Often, I have disagreements with the people around me, for example, about what to eat. I like to eat the brands I want to eat, and if I don't have this brand of this thing I want, no matter how good the others are, I will refuse.

More than once, because of such things, I was not understood by the people around me, they all called me "hypocritical", I don't deny that this is hypocrisy, but this is my principle, my principle did not hurt the people around me, but they said this, I would be very uncomfortable.

Whenever this happens, I feel that no one may be able to understand this approach, and I guess it is better to live alone in the future, so that others will not think I am strange, and I will not be distressed by other people's thoughts.

I have formed my own habits over the years, and I don't think there is any need to change them, but others seem to find them unreasonable. Because of this kind of thing, I think it's better to live on my own, and others don't have to accommodate me, and I don't need to accommodate others. It may be selfish to say that.

However, I think we are all too individualistic now, and we are more and more reluctant to compromise for anyone, because we feel that it is really unnecessary.

We have accepted a lot of new ideas now, and I have to say that these ideas are a bit one-sided, but they have shaped everyone's behavior. Everyone feels that their actions are not wrong, and others are different from themselves and do not understand. I feel so tired every day to understand the other person's behavior that is different from my own.

It's better to die alone and grow old alone, without accommodating anyone or compromising anyone.

There is also about children, I think it is necessary for the two to get married and have children. Although I like children, but I am very afraid of children, I think children are a troublesome thing, every day to play with him, to manage his food, clothing, housing, transportation, and even his thoughts, to give birth to a small child to be responsible for him for a lifetime. Oh my god, it's just horrible.

Every time I think about children, I feel that it's better to forget it, I don't want a partner anymore, and it's best to be lonely and old. To put it bluntly, whatever the reason, I think the biggest reason is that I don't want to be responsible for myself and others. Getting married and having a partner means that your responsibilities are getting heavier and heavier, and there are more and more things to take care of, and the responsibilities of adults are already not small, and you have to increase other responsibilities in this way, it's too tiring.

So, I think it's the responsibility that makes me want to die alone.

When I thought that I was really ugly in my life and no one wanted it, I began to have the idea of being lonely and old. At that time, I really felt that I was the ugliest person in the world, so no one would like myself, and every time I saw those shows of affection, I felt very lonely, maybe it was really because I was too ugly, so no one wanted to fall in love with me.

Whenever someone asks me what kind of girlfriend I want to find, I will be full of anticipation at first and say that I want to find a beautiful girl as a girlfriend, but after a long time, I will only say: I am afraid that I will not find a girlfriend in my life, I have decided to die alone. At that time, I was really desperate because I tried really hard to like a girl, but she said we were not suitable.

Every time you have this experience, you will realize how bad you are, and you will start to lose hope in life, because although you can make yourself live well, you will not be able to find the other half of your heart. Although many people have chosen to settle, but I don't want to settle, I just want to find someone I like, if I can't find it, it's better to be lonely for a lifetime.

So I've always lived with this mentality, and I try not to participate in those lively activities alone, because I hate being in a crowded place, which will make me more lonely. Although I often say that I have no hope for my other half, sometimes I always make a little waves because of some things, and I always feel that it is still possible to find happiness, and I think we all have a kind of expectation in our hearts. <>

Maybe in the next second, you will meet the person you have been waiting for all your life.

I used to think that I would have a boyfriend I really liked, and then get married, have a baby, and live a lifetime. Later, I thought that I was still blind alone, and I didn't want others to harm me, and I didn't want others to provoke me.

I started to have this idea after the breakup in my freshman year, because if a person is wholeheartedly involved in this relationship, and finally fails, all expectations and hopes will be disappointed at once. During that time, I often wondered if the relationship I worked so hard to maintain would break up, who would I be able to do again? Is there anyone who will be single-minded about me?

I don't want to prove that anyone is single-mindedly about me, just single-mindedly.

Later, I began to study midwifery and I began to know that childbirth is not easy. I've been a selfish person since I was a kid, and I'm afraid of pain, I don't want to have children, and I don't want to force myself.

The rest is that some external factors affect my thoughts, such as a lot of news on the Internet about women having children, forced childbirth, postpartum depression, etc., I really feel chilled when I watch the news, and I am also firm in the idea of not getting married and not having children.

For example, my brother and my sister-in-law, they gave birth to a baby two years after they got married, and then my sister-in-law took care of the child wholeheartedly, and also took care of my brother's daily life, and what about my brother? Every day when I come back from work to tease the children and start playing games, I throw all the housework to my sister-in-law, originally my sister-in-law was very good-looking, but now she is out of shape, and her state is also very poor. I was distressed and alert to myself.

I like to enjoy life, I like to play games, I like to travel, and I prefer to be quiet. So why do you want to engage in objects, is the game not fun or the food is not delicious.

I've been single for more than three years, and I've met good boys during this period, I don't know if it's because I don't like it, or I don't want to be in love, I'm particularly bored with a few days of contact, or I like to stay alone quietly. Recently, my family has begun to urge me to find a boyfriend, and I also feel that I can't be so single, otherwise I will really be lonely and old in the future, and I don't want to get married and have children in love, I am worried that I am used to being single.

I started to put myself in contact with a guy who had been chasing me for a long time, and I had been ignoring him until then. I convinced myself countless times, tried to accept him, tried to walk into a relationship, and I began to accept his invitations to go out shopping and watch movies. Listening to him chattering on the side, I was actually upset, but I had to hold back and pretend to be happy to listen to him.

Even if I am very unaccustomed to some of his behavior habits, I have persuaded myself over and over again that no one is perfect, and I am not the ideal self, so how can I ask others to become your ideal person. After getting along for more than a month, I feel that every time I go out is a kind of torture for me, I want to give up, but I am worried about whether I am really sick and abnormal, so I have been reluctant to accept a boy into my life.

I can't figure out if all the boys I've met in the past few years are not suitable, or if I don't want to fall in love and get married at all. My heart is very tired, I don't know what kind of love I want, I don't know what kind of person I like, I just want to be alone, but I'm worried that I'll always be alone. However, in the face of such feelings, I would rather die alone than two people speechless.

I have this idea after breaking up with my boyfriend, because I feel that I have failed too much in love, I am so tired of falling in love, girls are a more sensitive animal, and I am the kind of person who is particularly sensitive. In terms of love, I am more narrow-minded, with an old saying: I can't put sand in my eyes, I feel that the people I meet are not what I imagined, although I also know that two people need to communicate and understand each other together, but when a person makes me sad, I may never be able to go back to the past with him.

I think it's funniest and even more ridiculous that I broke up less than a month after I got a boyfriend. We used to be good friends, but we went from friends to lovers and then to strangers. <>

Really sometimes I think I'm more suitable for loneliness, it may be difficult to find a blend of one, I feel that boys fall in love for sex, so I don't like this kind of love. Because I was just friends with him before, he hadn't confessed before, and he didn't show that he liked me, he suddenly confessed to me after graduating from college, I felt that he should be sincere, so I agreed, maybe people are unlucky when they don't do anything, and I vomited when I kissed him for the first time, because I don't know when I learned to smoke, and I am a person who particularly hates the smell of smoke, and it is not suitable from the beginning, and then he feels very uncomfortable when he looks for me, in fact, smoking is not a big deal, you can add him to quit smoking, The most terrible thing is deception, and I can't tolerate others deceiving me the most. Maybe I'm a sensitive person who thinks a lot